Witnesses answer the prosecutor’s questions. The director of Maman’s home testifies, followed by the caretaker:
He said I hadn’t wanted to see Maman, that I had smoked and slept some, and that I had had some coffee. It was then I felt a stirring go through the room and for the first time I realized that I was guilty.
The first time you realized you were guilty?
Not when you shot a man once… and then fired the gun four more times?
Not when you were arrested?
Not when you sat in jail.
Not when the judge called you Monsieur Antichrist?
You realized you were guilty for the first time when the Caretaker tattled that you didn’t want to see your dead mother and the crowd reacted to your callousness.
That is when you realized you were guilty.
Notice the verb choice. He realizes he was guilty. He doesn’t say that he feels guilty.
Does Mersault ever feel remorse?